cathy nguyen's laugh is infectious! not to mention mecha mecha kawaii! : )

i wonder

i wonder if i will ever going to meet anyone quite like you.
because you made my heart race everytime we are close and apart.
to feel what it is to feel love and to be loved.
i wonder if i will ever going to meet you.
to feel belong.
to have a purpose in life.
i wonder if all of this is just mere fantasy of a wandering soul.
to seek the other part of the soul some of us believe to be searching for.
or it's just really just me.
i wonder.

feeling a bit pek chek (moody) now cos had a stupid accident while surfing at cherating today.

injury: back fin was slightly "bitten off", repair money to this hungarian dude whose board had a slight cut at the side who thinks he's good at surfing but judging from the way he surfs, he's nothing mere than a beginner like myself. oh well, better luck next time.

so not my day. pffs

surf's up

last weekend, i was in cherating for the billabong occy grom comp.
it was an interesting experience and exposure as i witnessed local boys compete for the top.
i can honestly say that it will probably takes me years or more to be good at surfing cos watching them doing those tricks and manoeuver in the water is just breathtaking.
i wish i was good at surfing and skateboarding as good as i am in snowboarding but sadly i'm not.
well, everything takes times no?


surfers enjoying the afternoon of sun and fun.













the sandy bottomless beach. it's hard not to not like it.
i will be back for more.

p/s: looking for surfing buddies (preferably kl or pj), whether u r beginner or pro, and interested for weekend surfing, do drop me a line or two.

2010

looks like i don't frequent here as often as i do. spent my new year eve at friend's place talking to newly met german friends, eating, drinking and watching fireworks from every imaginable angle possible. had been surfing a bit, still not good at it but will keep on trying. probably hitting cherating tomorrow if my body allows me (still recovering from high fever 2 days ago). life is good. not fantastic. one thing i want or hope to achieve this year is to be more carefree and may be travel or backpack somewhere i always wanted to if the bank allows me that is ; )

信じることで

i believe that my time will come.

reading back my text messages in my mobile phone makes me realised how much i have grown, the good and bad times in nz. tomodachi ni totemo aitai yo...minna genki?

my love for shoes

it's been 3 years since i last bought any sneakers or any kind of shoes for that matter. i used to be a compulsive shoe buyer back in the college days. that was because i haven't started earning my own money yet and i was just spending it like water...skate shoes, basketball shoes, running shoes, casual shoes were some of my fave collections. i can shamelessly tell you that half of those shoes i don't even wear it more than 10 times and are still kept in the boxes or left in the cabinet in my hometown. since i started working, i hardly spend my money on clothes or shoes. i don't even remember the last time i bought anything for cny. yeah, i'm one of those ppl who doesn't really wear new clothes during cny. recently, i started playing basketball again and i had my mum brought my basketball shoes over to kl but sadly, it didn't last many games cos it was old and done for even after many glued and stitching attempts. so, i've been searching hi and low in many places (you name it, any mega malls out there) and was miserably disappointed cos i couldn't get the ones that i wanted. when i was just about to give up...i told myself why don't i just go to the smaller mall like subang parade and to my surprised, i found what i was looking for. dirt cheap, almost white and i instantly fell in love with it. this my friend is my new basketball shoe - nike zoom uptempo double take ap.

なぜ

once again, i am struck by life's question. what is the real meaning of life? is it by saving loads of money so we won't be troubled when we get older? or is it just by living life as it is and make everyday the last day you have? this morning, a teenage girl knock on my parent's door and ask if she could clean our house as we pay her in return. during lunch time, i overheard her conversation with my parents as they were asking her how come she was doing this and all. she told my parents that she never finish standard 6 because her family was poor and most of her sibblings are in town to earn a living. she is a descendant of bidayuh (native of borneo, also once known as the land dayak). she speaks good mandarin as she was attending a chinese school before she quitted. i feel bad and humble because i know it's not easy, life out there. reality is twisted. i feel that i am blessed for being able to study and even been to many countries. sometimes life is not always fair. look at me, i am never lucky at love. as i am typing away, my sister and her newly wed husband is enjoying their honeymoon in the island of gods. probably sipping some champagne by the beach or indonesian cheap booze and enjoying the 5 stars luxury hotel pampering. it's strange how money plays a big role in life, whether you like it or not. that the opposite sex is attracted to wealth, money and power. i wonder if i will grow old and just die with no one by my side. that no one will attend my funeral and such. i wonder what kind of person i will become. i want to be carefree, to be able to feel happiness again! to be free spirited...but lately, all i feel is emptiness inside of me. i was taken back to the state i once was before i embark on my backpacking trip. may be i should take the road less taken again and to find the meaning of life. may be i should. to be continued...

tag along frankie last sunday for a photoshoot.
haven't been shooting for a while now.
model: sze lin
location: court house and post office

it's almost near the big long hol for me. no plans in mind yet except to fly home for my sis's wedding in nov. bangkok is one of the options. may be cherating for the weekend surfing trip? if you are a tight budget kinda of person, where would you be spending your holiday at?

too much on my thoughts now...つかれた！
random search on youtube that leads me to a cute song and cute mv :P

ゆき

the unforgettable moments with franziska, tobi and kazu.

i'm feeling a lil bit upset about workstuff and at the same time i'm feeling glad i got the confirmation letter but the down side is i cannot throw in the towel for another year. i'm so helpless now i'm thinking and missing the snow so much. was reading someone's comment on fb that mammoth is opening early...are you kidding me...it's only october and they have snow up in the californian mountains? haha...sweet as bro. sweet as! i so wanna ride right now. this very moment. when will my next riding trip be? next august in nz? next december in jp? i can only dream about it. guess this craving for snow and riding ain't gonna quit on me so easy. i kinda miss my jappy friends. those good ol' days when we just fall asleep like a baby every single night after the riding because we were so tired from one whole day of fun and riding in the snow.

my very first snowboarding attempt, circa june 08.

mt hutt, circa august 08.

riding rakaia saddle with tobi (left), kazu (right), ryoko and yukiko, circa august 08.


nihongo no shiken results will be out tomorrow and certificates will be given to students who pass the exam. wish me best of luck.

*updated: i didn't expect to pass the exam with flying colours. i got 99%! i was quite shocked actually but best of all, our sensei was very happy for us and she said we were very good students cos we studied very hard ; )

gettin' ol'der

i just turned older 1 day ago. not really a good day to celebrate anything cos i found myself heading to the ER at wee hours in the morning just to have the gastric pain stopped with a jap in the butt. spent the day sleeping it off or rather a tiring and backpain from the lack of lying down straight. other than that, life has been swirl, not entirely great but no complains except the freaking gastric that almost had my life 4 years ago...i shall remember not to mess with my health and will make sure i do. what i need to do now is to work out!! like serious gettin' rid of those extra fats around the waist that's so unsexy every single time i walk pass the mirror. good time really flies.

who am i kidding?

the monkey, the girl, the mate.

after last night incident, i realised my heart is still very much alive and warm. i thought i was turning into this cold person i never knew. had not felt so cut since the mae no koibito incident. can't say i'm fully well but i'm taking in the results of my actions as i type. a good friend from LA told me today that i should have known better, that we cannot please everyone around us. i mean why should we? we should make ourselves happy first before anyone else. i can't say i have fully gotten over the nihon ex but i am moving on with my life. i'm just really something. whenever i found myself someone good, i tend to turn them away. when i'm in my own emo world and alone, i crave for love so bad that i doubt it exist. i'm just good at messing things up before it got serious. sometimes i just wish i can go back to the time when everything is okay and just enjoy that moment forever. f***, life was so good then! i could not have ask for more. it was so real, still think about it once in a while. life does go on.

もっともっと

life has been quite comfy as in feeling very comfortable in the comfort zone. not sure if it's a good thing or not. on a different note, i am very happy cos someone make me very happy lately. apart from that, i don't know if i should continue my current job. not really liking the system or the way things are done but beggers can't complain right? we'll see how it goes. may be i will stay on, may be i will not. gonna have my japanese exam in early october and honestly speaking, i am so not ready as i have been quite lazy and lack of revision done. despite the fact that my sensei has been pushing us to study harder. will meet up with an old friend from singapore this weekend and lots of catch up to be done. i wish i have more time. more time to sleep. more time to see her. more time to study my japanese. more time to catch up with movies and dramas. more time to for my family. more time for everything.

スノボド - sunobodo

photo courtesy of rio chan.

location: somewhere in hokkaido on a perfect winter sunny day.

last night, i dreamt about gearing up to ride in the white powder. it felt so surreal and for a moment i was back in white paradise. too bad i didn't get to the part of riding it out in the powder. worst part is, it was all just a dream. this romance with the powder will probably stain me for the rest of my life. i feel stoked everytime i think about snowboarding and the deep white powder! it's about time i start saving up for my japan or nz riding trip. whose interested?

KLPF

one of the models at KLPF.
i think i'm in love with ♥ jean ♥ LOL : )
egao daisuki!! cho kawaii desu ne~~~~~

life has been very "domestic" for me. the latest work needs me to be proper and groomed. it's like an unspoken temporary swearing celibacy. has been attending nihongo class for almost a month now. sensei is very nice and funny. has been putting on some inches on the handles which is not a good thing. my cravings for ice creams and not-so-healthy diet. i should routine myself to exercise at least twice a week with mininum of 20 minutes per session but can i? i just want to stay sane for now! *breathe in breathe out*

the city of history

after 3 years, i am finally back to taste the once so in love mille crepe.
honestly, i was quite disappointed with the taste as it was no longer how it used to taste like but guess i wasn't the only one who felt that way.